Tenacious

Assalamualaikum all !!

Heyyy !! It has truly been awhile since I've posted anything. It's not like there's nothing going on and such. A LOT has happened. It's just not something that you would, you know, post and let everyone in the whole world to see. It's private.

But to tell you the truth, the real reason why I don't want to post anything personal here is because, if I did, then hearts will be broken, dignities crushed, and hatred will flare. I have had enough will all the trash talk. I have made a promise that I will not bat an eyelid to any of this anymore.

What comes out of their mouths may feel as if they pushed a blade right into my heart, but still silence is better than throwing a tantrum. But having to experience that gut wrenching pain over and over again is wearing me down, it is killing me, slowly driving me to the edge of sanity. And yet I have to stay strong for the people that needs me. For the people that cling to me for support, I have to be there for them. But... who will be there for me ? Whose shoulder will I lean on ?

I am afraid that one day I will succumb to insanity. Letting it wash all the pain away. But I can't, I won't !!

I still have my faith. Allah keeping me strong and standing. Albeit not tall, but still standing. And I pray for his strength and forgiveness. For his blessing in all and everything that I do.

Afterall, I am still here. On this neverending road to who knows where. I'll keep moving on.